realizations

i'm a creepster. i am also a horrible person. there's this nice boy i talked to who went head over heels for me instantly. and when he mentioned dating, i realized that, while i have yet to truly date after 24 years, i am still not ready. i'm just not sure i'm still into the whole random hook-up thing. i think i want to find someone regular, but not someone who is exclusive (which apparently this guy is...). dying to know what could happen with FT. don't know how to make it happen though. (and of course i have to find out if several other friends will let me push the boundaries juuuuuuust a little more...)

and also, JW is really getting on my nerves. he has severe ADHD, and is constantly making noise while he's studying. he then tells me to shush when i do any of the things he does. (i actually only do them to see how he'll respond. he'll sing, whistle, hum, drum; i do the same thing, and he tell me to be quiet.) he probably doesn't realize he's doing it, but i'm so mean to him about it. he needs to grow up. he also doesn't chip in anything when i have to go to the store because he eats incessantly, but then only gives me 2 dollars when we get a 7 dollar snack (first fast food i've had in a LONG time!) because i finished his leftover pizza that he and his roommate couldn't finish. i'm beginning to feel like he has some major problems with focus, work ethic, ethics in general, and having double standards. i do pretty much equal work in HIS apartment (dishes, cooking, taking out trash, etc.), plus spend some extra money on groceries because he won't go buy them. something has to change...

7 exams down, 5 to go... hell week is winding down slowly. still straight B/B+'s. hoping to pull an A out of somewhere.