quickie

-it is hard to concentrate in the gym when there are hot muscly sweaty undergrads walking around throwing iron around. dear GOD there are some scorchers in there.

-along the same vein of thought, i am easily influenced by a beautiful man. i need need need to stop this. i am hell-bent on getting close to a good looking man, and am quick to shun the unattractive.

-ALTHOUGH the one guy i've been creepstered by lately is unbelievably ugly... again, see the chart in previous post. he may not be actively gay right now, but he is all about me... i am so desperate to lose him.

unfortunately, we go to church together. GO FIGURE.

-PB has been texting me about living with him next year. JW thinks it's a terrible idea. it probably is. knowing me, i'll probably end up doing it anyway...

-DD called again the other night. his dad walked in on him jacking off to porn. what his dad didn't see is that it was shemale porn... DD has been bi-curious since day 1 of his sexual awakening when his male cousins messed around with oral sex with him during "truth and dare" on a regular basis. (he's the one i went to have sex with and then got stood up.) he texted me and said he really wanted to fuck me, but only if we could date. suddenly the tables were turned on me, and i could see a LOT better why things didn't work out with the boy and me. there is no fucking way we're dating from 2 states away, and he's insane. (which, by proxy, means i'm probably insane too.) again, the chart applies pretty strongly in this situation.

-i try to keep up with too many TV shows. there's just some good stuff out there, either currently or old shows that are now archived online. i used to own all of the will & grace dvds, watched all of them like a good gay man, and sent them on to the boy to enjoy. (i need to find another name for "the boy", or just stop talking about him altogether... he was a large part of my life for the entire year so far, though, it's hard not to until things progress a little more.) i watched all 5 or 6 episodes of QAF (the BBC version) on hulu, and would probably have watched the american version too, but it's not online...

-haven't been watching much porn lately, unsubscribed to all the porn blogs i used to frequent. there is one that i still check, and one video in particular:
http://godsandmen.blogspot.com/2009/09/milking-milkman.html

i have to admit, i'm gonna miss giving (and getting) blowjobs a lot. this, however, goes beyond a BJ. (of course, that goes beyond a normal dick too.) i had #6 down my throat like that, and i got really turned on knowing just how much he was enjoying it. he was just standing there, though, so i told him to fuck my face a little. i mean, seriously, my mouth is wide open, your cock is sliding down it and pushing my larynx with it, take advantage. put your hips into it. i realize now why i couldn't fit 'the boy' all the way down; his member was too wide to fit through my fauces, between my palatoglossal arches. (that's what i tell myself, at least...)

-people keep telling me how good i'm looking, how much weight i'm losing, how big my arms are... i don't really notice because it happens gradually, but i was taking a shower the other day and noticed my arms were kinda getting in the way when i crossed over my chest to lather the opposite shoulder. i love it. for the first time in my life, i'm gaining muscle.

-bed.