shorthand

-tests are going better than usual. i think. might have made a 100 on a quiz this morning. yay.

-people have been putting all kinds of sexual comments on my fb wall lately... all of them with gay references. oh geez.

-jay and i called each other 11 times yesterday. not a record, but still a lot. he still is killing the sexual aura, but everything else is going smoothly, and i really love this guy.

-introduced PB to JP, who went on the trip, and JP knew PB's ex, and it was funny, and they hit it off, and then i drove JP home b/c we had been drinking, and we had pancakes the next morning when i picked him up to get his car, and we talked for a long time, and i can tell we're gonna be friends. he's a softie. and hot. and young. and tans. and wrestles. and has washboard abs. and is really nice. and funny.

-i'm going to be about 2 hours away from here for some of my rotations next year. things are looking good, though, b/c i can still live w PB while i rotate through here. yay.

-my trainer was in a FOUL mood today when i got in, and i was worried he'd take it out on me... but halfway through the workout, he looked at me and said, "you'll notice i'm in a much better mood now that you're here. anyone ever tell you that you have a way of brightening things?" i had to smile at that one. i go there with the goal of making him smile and laugh. he's extremely serious and goal-oriented, and it's nice to see his broad smile once in a while. (he also told me i'm looking slim... 200+ sit-ups a day and dieting are starting to work!)

-jay mentioned getting engaged again today, offhandedly, in a convo involving another gay couple getting engaged, and i shit a brick. almost threw up on the spot. not even close to ready for that.

-2 topics: barebacking and top/bottom.

barebacking: the boy and i didn't wear anything when we messed around. jay wore a condom the first time we had sex. he hasn't since we both got tested. i'm totally down with going bareback IF you are in a relationship. however, there are a lot of guys who get off on barebacking complete strangers, and i have to say, as someone in the healthcare profession THIS IS FUCKING RETARDED. i totally understand, don't get me wrong, it is kinda hot to think about, but this "barebacking coalition" thing going on is a bit much. no wonder there are such GREAT stereotypes about us gay men. it's because they're true.

top/bottom: i used to think it wasn't a huge fucking deal, mostly because i feel i can enjoy both equally. i have almost exclusively bottomed thus far, and that's fine with me. if given the chance, though, you'd better believe i'm going to top! it was a huge rush trying it with jay. loved it, loved it, loved it. (i am still counting on 2 hands the number of times i've even had a dick in me and my dick in someone else, so pretty much all sex is good sex to me right now.) apparently, though, it IS a HUGE deal to a lot of guys out there, and not only that, but there are still some guys who assume that you can stereotype both tops and bottoms. not always the case. basically what i'm saying is that it SHOULDN'T be such a huge deal, and you SHOULDN'T try to stereotype someone as one or the other based on body type/personality/etc. if it means that much to you, cool, let everyone know so you don't mistakenly end up with someone just like you. however, i think ALL gays should be vers, it would help out with their insecurity issues. besides it's just plain fun that way. (i asked the one guy to top me last summer over text, and he was a total girl about it. he didn't want to top OR bottom. he had issues.)

i've had caffeine, can you tell? going to study, 3 exams left!