thoughts while i should be studying

-it's always so flipping cold in this house, and i am still so flipping tired from the stupid flu.

-i missed 12 classes this past week--12! i don't know how i'm going to catch up. i probably won't.

-cutting into dead people isn't as gross as i thought it would be. i have had no reaction to it, really. i almost feel guilty for not feeling worse. i'm pretty good at it, though. our old guy looks pretty beat up, but we're doing better than most of the other groups.

-dieting is for the birds. i love fruits and veggies and lean meats, but good Lord, i also love stuff that's bad for me.

-i need to write something meaningful here, soon. i've had a few things brewing in my head. i've passed the 100 viewer mark on my counter. hoorah? seriously, though, i need to figure out how to get pictures up here too.

-i've been needing affection again lately. there's only one guy around here who really lets me hang all over him, ben. i'm really grateful for him, but still, it's not the same. i'm used to a lot more than this. i got spoiled by nick and mike letting me--no, asking me!--to sleep with them and cuddle with them.

-the gala was a huge success last week. technically, i should have been involved with it every step of the way, but i did nada. they need to fire me from the social committee. even though i was still recovering, i danced a little, got my blood pumping. nobody parties like med students. my old roomie asked me to dance with him, oddly enough, during madonna's "like a prayer." it was fun. my good buddy's girlfriend went out and boogied with my for "mambo #5," which i requested. i slow danced with my other buddy's girl for "don't want to miss a thing" because he wasn't there and they're fighting and i wanted to make her feel special. she said she was so happy he wasn't there, and she had the best time. i helped my other buddy out a little, introduced him to a girl i know that he has had a huge crush on. he's a real sweet guy when he's not around the jerk who wasn't there. he had his face right next to mine--i honest to God thought he was going in for the kiss--and told me if i needed anything, he was my man, because i was the man. it's good to be loved. i left at 11:15 because i wore out. the party went until 2 am. incredible.

-upper classman died this week in the dominican. car wreck. it's heart-breaking, really. so much had been put into him... and he's just gone. makes me a little nervous, i'm going to el salvador for part of the break. oh well, death can't be all that bad. everyone goes sometime.

-we have a new president. whoop-ti-skip. everyone was excited about the inauguration today. i wasn't. i'm pretty apathetic about everything political, nothing personal, mr. president. it's just another swearing in of another man to run this place. history keeps ticking along regardless. and also, being the self-centered person i am, i like to show my disinterest when millions of people turn their attention to something that doesn't involve me.

-more soon, hopefully a little prose i'm writing in my head. maybe a tear jerker?